I do not know whether i should post what is in my mind here. There are so many people so many people reding this stuff. I do not know whether i feel sad, whether, ifeel angry, but i feel a kind of mercy towrds my self. The reason i do not know but i feel that way.

I have strange dreams. And in my dreams a very nice girl called Neeta keeps coming. She touches me caresses me and asks whats on my mind. The haedache i have after a hard day disappers immediately when she touches my forhead.

I have never known any Neeta in my whole life. But this name keeps coming and coming. Neeta is probably the name of 1 million indian girls. is that why that name keeps coming in my mind? I do not know how Neeta looks, but i can imagine her shape. not how tall or how she dresses, but she has got those loving eyes and a an air of enthusiasm about her........later